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I hate February

10 February 2004, 11 pm | Opinion

I almost always seem to have a case of mild depression this time of year. I had a MAJOR one three years ago. I do not want to go through that again. I don’t know if it is the fewer number of sunny days because of winter, or the third quarter lull of the school year, or a combination of other factors. I feel the weight of darkness looming at the edge of depression.

Lord, please help me stay in the light. Please give me your love, peace, and energy so that I can reflect it to those in more need than me. Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on us.

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  1. mark of cowpi journal refered to february blahs and has inspired some thought. hope is hard to receive. for me, underlying that total lack of interest and energy, it seems like a restlessness, a need to fill something inside myself that cannot be...

    ∼ πλ · 15 February 2004, 9 am · at ignispati ¬

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  1. Yesterday the sun came out for a while! You know how Cincinnati winters can be - grey days, day after day. But the sun came out! We celebrated it, we felt reinvigorated. There is something about a sunny day….

    I did a bit of reading on Buddhism’s four noble truths a while ago. The first one goes something like this - ‘craving leads to suffering’. That was insightful for me - when I am suffering in one way or another, then it is likely that I am holding on to something (craving) that I don’t want to let go of. What is it? Why do I cling to it? Why can’t I let it go? That all kind of leads into another noble truth - detachment from suffering. Anyway, just wanted to mention that because it has helped me lately…

    ∼ πλ · 11 February 2004, 6 am · by Steve Bogner ¬

  2. Thanks Steve. I have been trying to follow similar advice. I am not sure if attachment or “craving” is necessarily at the heart of my problem. (It could be, but I don’t know what it is yet.)

    My problem is that I just feel yucky and have no energy. Nothing is appetizing, as in food or activities. For example, listening to music—nothing seems to be what I want to hear, and when I think of something I might want to listen, I get this sick, it’s too-sweet kind of feeling.

    At times, I have a similar feeling with prayer. The words do not seem to satisfy or help or comfort or whatever, but I will presevere in prayer. I have heard that when you least feel like praying, that is when you most need to. Regardless of what I am feeling, I do know that God will never abandon me (or any of us).

    ∼ πλ · 11 February 2004, 9 am · by Mark ¬

  3. For me January is worst because 4 weeks from now I can say that “the winter is past, the rain is over and gone; The flowers appear on the earth; the time of the singing birds has come, and the voice of the turtle is heard in our land”. Song of Salomon.
    What’s 4 weeks? Nothing! So cheer up buddy. David.

    ∼ πλ · 11 February 2004, 9 pm · by David ¬

  4. Maybe you have ‘Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)’ - take a look at in www.webmd.com…

    ∼ πλ · 12 February 2004, 6 am · by Steve Bogner ¬

  5. try some formal meditation, specifically on the goodness of God or the days between Christ’s death and resurrection..the soul has it’s seasons, too. peace of the Lord be yours.

    ∼ πλ · 13 February 2004, 8 pm · by mea ¬

  6. Thank you all for the suggestions and your prayers.

    ∼ πλ · 18 February 2004, 6 am · by Mark ¬

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